I dunno bruh

[Z239]

I cried three times yesterday night.

First it was during a phone call I made with my Kuya.

Second was when I talked in person with my boss.

Third was in the restroom after one of my team coworkers asked if I was okay.

I don't know if crying is good but yo I don't wanna not be at work just because I felt like shot about my thoughts.

Things are happening around me and I have no idea how I'm legit dealing with them.

I blow up in my room after bottling my feelings in.

My posts in Medium suck ass but I wanna keep writing.

My Kuya is holding me accountable...

The next time I call him is when I tell him what I want in my life.

To go on about achieving then is just...

What the flying fuck.

I'm scared of things to come.

[blackwha]

Hey,

Do you have access to health insurance?

If not, do you go to a school that offers counseling?

Find someone to talk to and that will try to help you. You shouldn’t have to live like this.

Much love.

[fauxartist]

I'm glad you have someone in your life supporting you, It's hard when your not understanding whats going on with your feelings...and we get fearful of the the unknown...like what's going to happen...feeling a bit out of control emotionally can be very scary and unsettling. I was going to ask if you have a therapist or would consider going to a therapist to work out whats going on, with your feelings. Many here find out they have anxiety or issues with depression, etc.. Once you kinda know why your feeling the way you do...it's the first step to getting help to make things better. I'm really glad your sharing about it...writing helps me...I hope it helps a bit for you too.