This is the first support grou...

[oliveoil0]

This is the first support group I’ve ever tried so I hope it helps. I’m on spring break right now but I have to go back to school on Sunday and I’m terrified and I feel like crying all the time and I don’t know why. Also when I’m at university I have friends and they’re great but when I’m alone I just completely fall apart. I listen to music and it helps but then at night when I shut everything off my brain spirals and I can’t do anything to stop it.

[jkl5500]

Are you getting any therapy for this?

[oliveoil0 in reply to jkl5500]

No I’m not. My family doesn’t really think it’s a big deal and whenever I try to get into the counselling clinic they’re booked for the day and I guess they don’t take appointments set up before hand.

[oliveoil0]

Yes I get panic attacks and i have passed out and thrown up from anxiety. I don’t really know what’s happening at school. My major (pre nursing) is really stressful and I don’t think I’m good enough to be in the program but I think it’s something more than that I just can’t figure it out.

[oliveoil0]

Yes but they’re in high demand so it’s really hard to get in.

[jkl5500]

Based on what you wrote to justliving here, this is a big deal! If you're unable to function normally, and have panic and lesser anxiety attacks, then you need treatment for it, period! You must have a family doctor. Can't you make an appointment there?

[oliveoil0 in reply to jkl5500]

I can try but I’m also scared to have to tell my parents about it but yes I’ll get on that.

[oliveoil0]

I think in my sophomore year of high school but I didn’t really understand what was happening so I didn’t say anything to anyone.

[oliveoil0]

Out of the blue

[jkl5500]

Do you get along well with your parents?

[oliveoil0 in reply to jkl5500]

Sometimes but we also have some large disagreements and I have told them I have anxiety before and they were concerned and then forgot about it a couple days later.

[oliveoil0]

A couple weeks ago.

[jkl5500]

I'm sure they love you and want what's best for you. Tell them you need treatment now. I can tell you from experience that all this will NOT magically go away by itself. You have to get it treated, so you can feel like a human again. Please get started.

[oliveoil0 in reply to jkl5500]

Thank you so much. I will.

[oliveoil0]

That one definitely had a reason behind it. I had just told my mom I wanted to get a tattoo and she freaked out so I freaked out and started shaking and crying but I was able to hide it from her until we got off the phone.

[Hidden in reply to oliveoil0]

Hi OliveOil Love the image (assuming you are Popeye's girlfriend)

When I have panic attacks they seem out of the blue but usually follow a dramatic thought that zips into my head, like, "I can't handle this" or "I'll never cope" or "I can't do this". also Like just living, I wonder why it is necessary to hold back emotions from your mom. What thought did that raise?

[oliveoil0 in reply to Hidden]

I don’t really like showing emotions like that to anyone, not just my mom.

[oliveoil0]

She just kept saying no and honestly I think just the fact that she reacted so strongly was what set me off.

[oliveoil0]

Now that you mention it yeah kind of a lot I think.

[oliveoil0]

Not quite that extreme. She just brings up small little things wrong with me or the way I am. But mostly she’s pretty supportive.

[oliveoil0]

It was pretty good actually. I saw all my friends that I can’t see while we’re at school and it was pretty chill. Why haven’t you ever been on spring break?

[oliveoil0]

That’s cool of them to share that with you. I’m sorry that happened to you. It sucks

[oliveoil0]

A one line drawing of a rhino on my ribs.

[oliveoil0]

Rhinos are my spirit animal and it would remind me to be strong. And since it was such a simple design, just an outline, the tattoo artist said I should just go for it.

[ferris2424]

People who are older did not grow up with depression and anxiety being "real" things so it can be hard for them to understand. Seeing someone to talk to is always my #1 advice that I give.