Trying hard

[Donndonn1980]

I try so hard to think positive and each day I feel like I'm just trying to safely make it through the day. I have no trust for anyone and it makes me isolate but that's not who I wanna be. I enjoy ppl but have been done wrong so much it makes me weary. It's sad that I dropped my son off with his mom today and was asked to stay but I'm so indecisive about it cause I can never sleep due to lack of trust for others living there. Am I stupid or did my caution keep me ok this long? I'm so exhausted thinking so much everyday all day. Ppl say just get help like a therapist and I try but it seems to never pan out and I still have nobody to help me sort all my issues out. It's so lonely and scary inside my head. All I wanna do is be happy,raise my kids and be loved. Is that so much to ask for. I'm a decent person despite the lies ppl tell or false info about me they share with others. I have no secrets and if u ask I will tell the truth. Too old for bs. Anyways Things are overwhelming and I just want help and to find myself again. Sick of running in circles. Also sick of feeling like ppl want to see me fail or even worst. How can u judge a person u don't know and don't know what that person's been through or how far he has come and matured. I guess life isn't fair is it and those of us who are awoke see life a whole lot different and it's scary!!!😩😧

[Dragon1940]

I apologize very much for your situation it sounds extremely rough indeed, you are not stupid for being wary of others for all you know someone in that house could be mentally unhinged. Well posting on here is a great way to begin seeking help be it through friendship, recommendations, etc. unfortunately that is a part of life, there will always be people who wish to see you fall but you need to just keep on going through life, never let them succeed! indeed you cannot judge a person you do not know much about & anyone who does is not worth any consideration. Life is indeed interesting & cruel at times but I know you can still prevail & make it through your situation happy & functional! have a wonderful day/night!

[Donndonn1980 in reply to Dragon1940]

Thank you. Glad u understand.

[Dragon1940 in reply to Donndonn1980]

My pleasure!