I hate anxiety. I want to feel better. I want to be free from the electrical shock waves that course through me. When the panic subsides, the adrenaline charge is still there.
People suggest walking or exercising. Don’t they know I am afraid to move, much less get out of bed?
I hear you CCWilliams...too afraid to leave the bed when the adrenaline surge is still high. That is when "deep breathing" can help lower your adrenaline. When you deep breathe you change the chemicals in your brain and your body responds in relaxing. It's a learned behavior. Rather than reaching for blanket and lying in bed with your mind full of thought and fear, put on the ear phones, tune yourself out to the world around you and listen to an audio tape of Meditation.
Meditation can include, Affirmations, Relaxation, Hypnosis, Visualization and just an over all calming effect on your over sensitized nervous system. What you think is what you will feel. When turning your mind to positive suggestions, your thoughts will leave negativity behind. With that allow your body to relax as you breathe out. I do suggest once that is done 15-20 minutes, you do need to get out of bed, get washed and dressed and allow your thoughts and movements to go forward and do and think of other things in your life.
You can and will feel better but it is not found in a pill. Therapy helps but you still have to be the one to go forward in what you learn in therapy. Make today, the day that you make some changes in your life. It doesn't have to be monumental, just something different that can trick your mind into saying to anxiety...."I'm not going to allow this from you anymore" "I am in control of my life" "I've got things to do, places to see and a life to live" "You are nothing but a bully who doesn't deserve my time" "You can't scare me anymore" and last but not least...."I am safe, you can't harm me"
Time to get tough with the Anxiety Monster....Saying these things out loud can sometimes have a better impact on ridding you of those negative thoughts and fears. You've got this CCWilliams, we're behind you all the way xx
Oh my goodness those are strengthening words. I have been listening to affirmations on YouTube and they are very soothing. It is just 5hat the anxiety is very strong this time.
I have an appointment with my therapist in a little while. Getting out of this hole I have dropped into is key. There are some physical issues going on too and they have to be dealt with.
This isn’t me. Not the me I normally am. This is the terrified me looking for a solution. Thank you for your words of hope.
Hello CCWilliams! Agora1 has said just about there can be said for now. She's "good".
About "This isn't me".....actually it' s you but you have a rather nasty, ugly hitchhiker riding along in the shotgun seat. Put on your best silver-toed pointed cowboy dress boots and kick its *ss off that seat. Is going to keep trying to climb aboard, and you just keep those boots polished and the toes pointed. As Agora1 said, we really are behind you all the way an love to see where your hitchhiker lands. xx
My dr increased my Paxil dosage because after talking, this has been a long time completely ng. Not everyone wants to do meds but this on3 has saved me. Will see how the higher dose does.
I hate living at home
i hate feeling this way 
I hate what I'm doing
I hate myself right now 
