This is my first post since joining the group. I've been fighting depression since I was in my teens but not like this. The past year has been the blackest I've known. I am a first responder. i work long shifts, get little sleep and am witness to a lot of horrible things. I reckon those things have taken a toll. I am married and have been for 13 years but I'm currently living away from her and my two kids as I try to work through this. I am on meds and see my therapist once a week but, I feel so paralyzed by this depression...and fear that I can't seem to take any action to get myself out of it. Just the basics (food, exercise and sleep) seem insurmountable.
I'm just feeling it heavy today and wanted to finally open my mouth on here after reading everybody else's stories.
Hope y'all are hanging in there today.
Thanks for listening,