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[vanessi]

Today I shared something on instagram.

"There were colors, there was sound and there were songs.

Sometimes we had moments when even sparks flew.

I could see the stars in his eyes, everyone joined and became a heart that flowed through our veins.

Now there are no colors left..."

One of my ex's friend sent a message asking me if I am ok and I told her my ex and I are not together anymore. I got sad because I see she has a good relationship with her bf but I guess sometimes people have good and bad times. Mine is bad at the moment and I hope it changes.

The girl told me "He probably does still really love you. Boys are strange creatures... and you never know what could happen in the future"

I guess she is right, I don't know what will happen with my future, I'm sad cos I don't even know what decision to make and I feel under so much pressure and stress. I see people is doing their life. I still find very difficult to go to work, the anxiety and the sadness invade my soul every morning.

I hope you all are ok and are having a good Sunday, I only wanted to share this with you

[cfmcnally]

Hi Vanessi, I’m sorry that you are struggling right now. One thing I’ve always found helpful when I feel like life is so much easier for everyone else is to remind myself that we all struggle and just because others seem to be living their lives with ease doesn’t make it so. It always made me feel less alone in my struggles and almost made it easier to accept them and cope. Not sure if it will help but just thought I’d share..... take good care of yourself

[vanessi in reply to cfmcnally]

I know everybody has their own issues, but it made me feel so sad see the woman how happy is, well apparently.

I don't know, I wish I could smile again