As if being anxious about myself wasn’t enough...

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I already can’t leave my bed let alone my house but it’s starting to make me anxious when my family does. I fear my kids going to school ... I think I fear that because I can’t personally ensure their safety. I get anxious when my husband drives himself to work or back because accidents happen. I know this is irrational but I still feel it. I tried to send my son to the mailbox with an envelope and right when he was about to go, I changed my mind and had him take his coat and shoes off. To even get that far took hours of thinking. Not only am I terrified at the idea of walking to the mailbox but now I’m terrified for others too.

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Hi! I’m new here just joined yesterday, I have never been involved in any type of support group. Just reading your posts made me feel less alone. I too suffer from fear of getting out of my bed at times. My biggest struggle at the moment is being left alone. I’m a mom of four and at this moment I feel I’m failing them. And then someone most of the time my husband has to remind me that just the simple fact that I’m holding on is not failing them

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I’m a mom of 2 boys 9 and 11. My husband is also supportive. It stresses me to watch everyone watch me. This episode is effecting my entire family. My kids have set up shop in my bedroom to be near me. My husband is trying his best to bribe me with all my favorite foods to get my appetite up. Today I was in a bath and my even my dogs stood there looking over the side ... I looked back at them and my dogs and I literally just stared at each other w no movement for almost a minute. Guilt can really sneak up ...

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Hi. I'm new as well but am finding comfort in reading other peoples posts already. A couple years ago, I had episodes similar to this. I would walk around like a zombie wondering when and how people were going to die. They would be talking right to my face and all I could think about was death, their death. If I let myself think about it long enough I made myself sick thinking about mine. I'm single and I feel guilty just around my family feeling like this so I can only imagine what you feel like having a husband and kids. I would say kudos for coming here to talk about it. It's always hard to start that because you never know if people are going to be receptive to it. One of my closest friends basically just tells me to suck it up and let it go. Tomorrow's a new day. I get so angry with him but he just doesn't understand.

Some things I did to help myself get past these episodes was to put myself in the present. Has anyone I worried about died? No. Will they? Of course, that's part of life. It sucks but it's going to happen. Is it happening right now in this minute? No. Is there anything I can do about it? No. I don't know if any of that will help you at all. Don't be so hard on yourself and be happy for the little things that you accomplish each day. Some days it's hard to get out of bed, don't make yourself feel guilty for it, just sleep and relax. I just keep trying to put myself in the present. Try and stop those future thoughts that haven't even happened yet and may never happen. I have a habit of making up stories about my future so much that I have anxiety thinking about what could happen. I worry so much about something that doesn't even exist. Yes it might happen, but I don't know that. It's hard... super hard to stay in the present.

I wish you luck!!