Plans

[Greenbooks82]

I know this sounds morbid..but my suicide plans, even though I view them as a last resort, help my anxiety. Anyone else been through that?

[Agora1]

In what way? That you have an out? How about using a positive plan when you feel like that. Anxiety needs stability, we don't like surprises. We do better with a plan of action as well as a structured environment. This is how hospital in patient units are run. Are you under the care of a therapist right now? Medication? Stay safe and know we care and are here to support you. xx

[Greenbooks82 in reply to Agora1]

Yes under the care of a therapist. Medication yes too. It makes me feel like I have an out to feeling like this.

[tashalyn]

I think most of us here have some sort of a suicide plan in the back of our mind, thinking of it as an OUT from this suffering. But here is the MAJOR questions what if it is not an out but a trap? Atleast in the current life we have some good times even the tinniest bits, sleep for example, or hugging a loved one, or even just venting out on this forum. You want an OUT plan, I changed mine from suicide to something else, if things get really really unbearable I will check myself to an in-patient facility. For now take it one day at a time, you are in control of that.

[Greenbooks82 in reply to tashalyn]

I should make a list of all the tiniest bits. Good idea to change the out plan to something else

[hypercat54]

Oh yes I definitely understand that. Many years ago back in my 20's I faced a start choice - I was either going to do everything I could to help myself and my depression or I was going to kill myself.

Obviously I decided on the former and am basically glad I did. I always kept the latter as a comfort blanket and knew I was allowed to do this if I needed to. I never have of course but it's been great knowing that this is there. x

[Stilltrying_]

I'm with you hypercat54, I'm the same. I still have a plan to resort to but i never want to do that and i've been on the up for the past few months, so fingers crossed it will never happen. Gemma X

[Kitty487]

I think about it often, I think about how it would be the end of this horrible feeling that's an everyday thing. But then I have things that I know I could never do that for. I have two children, and they make everything better for the most part. I find my depression is worse when I don't have them. Do you have children, a significant other, something that blocks your way through the out? I try and think of those reasons. They make things clearer. It's a scary world and everyone needs someone at some point. It's ok to lean on people when you need it. Yes, it gives comfort of it's own,the idea. But find comfort in the present. The things that really like to keep you going!

[Forestina]

I think it is important to plan for things whenever you can, it gives you comfort, it doesn't mean you would go ahead with anything. I have all my details of who to contact and my desire for a woodland burial on me at all times.