Sprinkle 1 . I hope I have hit bottom.

[Sprinkle1]

Hello all you lovely people, I probably will not be writing for a while, I think I am at the bottom, fed up of changing drugs, feeling like my head is going to explode, wasting money on pills and Dr, visits. Now talks of internment I was in last July and now it is only January 2018. So if you do not see me around to support you, it is not because I do not care, I have nothing left to give. Don't give up, be true to yourselves. I love you all. Sprinkle 1

[Tiredinky]

Dear Sprinkle, I am so sorry that you are having such a bad time. I was in a very dark place when I first joined this site and I pm'd you. You were so kind and understanding when I really needed it. I am doing better with the help of a psychiatrist and medication. Thank you so much for your support when I needed it the most. I wish you well and never give up on yourself.

[Sprinkle1 in reply to Tiredinky]

Bless your dear, I really do not know how much more I can take, all these stupid expensive med's that end up in the garbage. All these trips into hell - yes I think it exists. Thank you for your kindness. If I can hold on long enough I am going to see my psychiatrist on the 7th, she has been ill for some time. My Dr. has stepped in, but she does not know the ins and outs of the sneaky brain. She has suggested hospital to me, I do not want to do that, I have two beautiful cats I love So much. A friend has told me he will take me to the appt. I am unfit to drive, I cann't read, watch TV or do much of anything, no shower or shampoo I am disgusting, I feel like a bag lady. I never thought my life would end up in this mess at 75, One brother in England, my only son is a quad, I left California hoping for a change and left 3 wonderful people behind. I have always had a glass half full, tried to be cheerful and positive, but I wonder what I ever did to get a cracked brain. Thank you Tiredinky, Now you have helped me, I have bawled my head off, I do not feel sorry for myself I just feel frightened and alone. I've got to get this poison out of my brain. I am so glad you are making progress, I am supposed to start some more new pills on Mon?!!! I'l let you know how they do, and what the psychiatrist does for me.. I send you Big Hugs and Lots of Love. Sprinkle 1 xxxx oooo

[Hidden in reply to Sprinkle1]

Goodnight 😃 take care - be strong it will get better.

[Hidden in reply to Sprinkle1]

Sprinkle hope you feelin a wee bit better, keep strong and positive darling. Do not give up,treat it as a goal, that your not going to miss.take care x

[claire0410]

I am sorry that you are at a such a low point. I can only hope that things start looking better in the days to come.

[Sprinkle1 in reply to claire0410]

Thank you for caring, I'll keep you posted. I send Love & Hugs. Sprinkle1

[Sprinkle1 in reply to Sprinkle1]

Hello, took me some time, ended up going in the hospital for 10 days, Came out improved but not where I want to be. then managed to let a nasty bug catch me,, and have spent the last 9 days in my bed. My new diagnosis is bi-polar with anxiety, and it does not feel good. I feel a bit depressed and hope to find a decent psychiatrist soon. So dear friends I hope you are all on a level of satisfaction at this time. As I am not a quitter, I will keep battling on, and encourage you all to do the same. Sending You All strength, good health, love and Big Hugs. Sprinkle 1.

[Agora1 in reply to Sprinkle1]

Sprinkle, I'm glad you used that time to get some extra help in the hospital. I just wish you hadn't caught a nasty bug to boot. Take care of cold/flu. I know you are not a quitter, more power to you. That is what will see you through. Keep positive, strong and get well soon. With love Agora xx

[Windy101]

Sprinkle, I wish for you that things will turn around and start goingin a happier direction very soon. Please take good care and don't stay away too long!

[Sprinkle1]

Thank you for caring, sorry I am bawling my head off, perhaps that is what I need, to wash the grunge out of my brain. It has to improve before too long, this has been going on for Months and Month, was in the hospital last year, and now they are bringing it up again. Oh No.!!!

ThANK All of You for caring. I just hope I can sleep without nasty dream. I love you all and wish you well, you know the hell I am going thru, and this has been the story of my life. I hope to come back soon with a cheery note. Sprinkle 1

[Agora1 in reply to Sprinkle1]

This is your time now Sprinkle1. Time for a little respite. You will be okay with a little ''me time". You know we understand and we care about each other. I've never seen a forum like this that has so much love. Wishing you some rest both mentally and physically. You're in my thoughts. xx

[Sprinkle1 in reply to Agora1]

Dear friend and supporter, Yes I know You care, I have seen your letters to me and Many Others, I think You are a Special Lady. Finally I am feeling well, I got a nasty infection and it really bowled me over, have spent the last week in bed?!!I one thing that bothers me, is I need a psych. Dr. and do not want to drive hours to send $140.oo for a 3 min chat, I live on S.S. and have no 2nd dairy ins. Yes I am a fighter, I do not roll over. Hope other members read this, I'm going to check the web for psychiatrists in the area. I feel tired, so back to bed. Sending as always to readers, Good Health, Love, Peace and Big Hugs. Sprinkle 1

[Agora1 in reply to Sprinkle1]

Feel better soon. xx

[Hidden in reply to Sprinkle1]

Orr you sound such a lovely person, are you feeling any better hope so ❤️

[deea21]

Hello Sprinkle. You know I saw a lady on Facebook years ago named Baddie Winkle. She is crazy and damn perfect. She knows how to live her life. Don’t give up. It doesn’t matter your age. Go out, make a Hobby, dress up something you ever dreamed, I don’t know wear pink . Don’t give up. I’ve been the last 16 Years on pills, with therapists or psychiatrists. I’ve been in hospital too. It never ends. You know why? Because you are the answer. And if you have the power and straight to fight you will discover your truly amazing face of who you are. I understand what solitude is. I understand what is to feel on the edge and not wanting to live anymore, but what if you would try to make a change the way you are now. Don’t give up, don’t let life overcome you. Big hug. I’m really sorry I’m not very close with you; because I would take you out at a pub and a walk to have fun. Kisses and hugs

[melbrown]

Sprinkle1. I'm sorry you are going through a tough time.... like so many here I can relate. Right now I'm feeling really really low. It's hard, but I'm still trying to live my life. I hope you find some sun soon. Sending big hugs. 💛🙏

[Anxiousjy]

Hi Sprinkle1, I am so sorry this things have to happen to you, to us. I too question why I have this kind of brain while other people gets to live in a normal way. You are not alone darling. You are stronger than you think. ❤️

[Lostjoy]

I’m sorry sprinkle1. I wish I could help you more. I would move you in with me if I could. I left California also and everyone I know there which is adding to my misery. I feel so alone.

You take as much time as you need for you. Just know you will be missed here, and we will all still be right here if you feel you need to start writing and responding again. Please be well dear. Lots of love to you.

[WebbAnd13]

I know, feel, and live your frustration. I too have said I am done. Then a new thought, a need fufilled. Someone that needs us more than we want them. Who knows. I am so done with the things that trigger me. But, I did not disconnect from my encouragement. Especially here.

[WebbAnd13 in reply to WebbAnd13]

Unfortunately, today showed the real colors of who is my soulmate. She could not take the conversation, so she called the cop that lives next door. So, I now love her, but never again will trust her. She has no concept of being in the wrong nor anyone else could be correct. I gave my life, livelihood, health, and sobriety to her. Now I have nothing.

[Florida1959]

Don’t give up on us or yourself, you are so kind, take a bit of time out for you, and be kind to yourself, lots hugs x

[Hidden]

I'm so so sorry that's things are not working out well. I send u so much love and positive vibes. I know it really sucks, trust me. I understand u. I hope one day things will be better for all of us🙏🙏🙏

[Want2BHappy3]

I wish you the best, take care of yourself

[ToriJ]

Hi Sprinkle1. I’m also really sorry you are going through this again. It’s so easy to just give up isn’t it, but people like us are stronger than most.

I obviously don’t know you, I’m miles away from you, but I wish I wasn’t. Ive only posted here a couple of times, but you were one of the first to reply and you helped so much.

You sound like a very special person, who when feeling so awful, is still willing to help others.

I hope you find some peace and happiness very soon. Take time and look after yourself.

Xxx

[Hidden]

Hi sprinkle..you were there for me as well..I wish you the best..Will miss not seeing you on here, but you gotta do what you got to do..peace and happiness and never give up..

[amymvb]

Hey Sprinkle1,

You will be in my thoughts and I am sending you much good juju and a hug. Don’t give up! Feel the feels, work through them and know there are always people here for you!

💕

[Forestina]

Sprinkle, you are a lovely lady. I haven't been on this site long but you have been so kind and helpful. Thinking of you and sending all the best wishes there are.

[Jmoser]

Hi Sprinkle

When I first came here you were the first to encourage me and it kept me going. Be strong and know I really care about you. Praying you come out of this and are stronger than ever. Love and hugs to you!!

[Agood1]

Hi Sprinkle

I know how you feel but don't give up. I have no friends where I live either all of them live out of town now and I'm always alone because my kids are at school and my boyfriend works long hours and that's so hard on me. I don't want to go anywhere because I'm afraid I may have an anxiety attack and be left out there by myself. I will be praying for you!

[gerrerd]

The only thing i can tell you is change your thoughts its the only way, trust me i have had clinical depression for 46years. I have to take 10mg of citalopram daily because it is a chemical imbalance in my brain. Also anxiety, its been a long journey and a very hard one. the hardest thing was working all those years.. I have looked suicide in the eye many times over the years. But that would have been the easy way out i chose the hard way. I was a right miserable b..........rd . And made many people around me miserable. Including my mother it breaks my heart to think what she had to put up with. The only trouble is she died 33 years ago when i reacted to the world like you did. to my post. There,s one thing that gives me comfort, she would be proud of me trying to help people like you. If I can help one person avoid a crap life like i have had it will all be worth it. I still struggle every day. But since coming on this forum i feel a bit better about myself. Instead of being the victim i am trying to be the solution for people who do not have a clue on how to run there life. I could go on for hours because it runs so deep the misery i endured in life. The pain i caused, the people i upset , I did,nt give a sh.t. But now i do, If i did not i would not be spending all my time trying, to Help someone like you. If this makes you take notice its worth it. I know its hard so god bless you i dont want you to have a long struggle like many of us on this forum. Your humble servant. Ray. Trying to make a difference.

[Starrlight]

I am wondering how you are doing now and praying and wishing you well. I know it gets raw, it gets rough, it gets cold and seems lonely but there is another side that is comfort and the way is smooth and warm and with many at your side. Best to you.

[Hidden]

Hey hope you are feeling better😃👋I know you feel like you are the only one, and your problems worse than anyone's

.. Believe me I would swap mine.. Omg it's hard, I think why me, the world wouldn't miss me, but my Georgous girl would. I look at people every day

Eg in Asda. and see them, talking about normel things, I need a holiday but all friends I had were work colleagues, same routine everyday cos of what happened.

Life shouldn't be this hard.

Remember no one knows how you feeling, one day at a time,and one tick, good luck 😃

laughing

[Hidden]

Don't give up

Hey hope you ok, you sound like I feel, what's the point, I wish I could talk too someone about what's happened, that way I may get over it. Please don't give up, smile, it don't cost nothing, about the only thing that doesn't. 😍goodnight god bless take care