Just realized I’m gonna have to actually INTERACT w ppl when I go to college in few months . I’m so upset & suicidal again . I feel like everyone around me is walking on eggshells bc of how fast I snap into “I wanna die” mode . Idk what to do . I just want everything to STOP 😭 I find myself crying so much I’m dehydrated constantly or feeling like I’ll get sick . I hate everything , including myself . My social anxiety keeps getting worse as the days pass & idk how to get rid of it . Ugh I just want help . I wish I could LIVE IN THERAPY . It’s my only safe place . I consider my mom taking me to a mental hospital quite often now bc I can’t get a hold of my pain . Someone help me ... please .