The reality has set in

[mn15]

I’ve reached a point where I’m not sure what I want to do anymore. I know I need to think ahead and keep looking forward but I’m not sure if I even want to do that any more.

I was talking to my head today after work and I felt sad that he employed me, felt sad that I’ve become a burden on him and the school. I love my job but I don’t think I’m doing it well or doing enough for the kids to make them be the best they can be.

My marriage isn’t great and it’s my fault. I’m not present and it’s not fair on my husband. He deserves so much better, as do my children.

I’m just feeling overwhelmed by all of the emotion and realisation that I’m actually not enough despite my best efforts. I’m so tired of fighting and failing each time.

[ckw1]

Hey there, sorry to hear that you’re not feeling good. I think you’re being too hard on yourself, give yourself a little break. Are you new to your job, because if so then it is completely normal to not know everything. There is a learning curve for any new job.

As far as your marriage goes I obviously don’t know exactly what you’re going through but it’s normal to have rough times. If you and your husband are committed to each other then there is nothing that can’t be overcome.

Keep your head up and don’t let your own thoughts get the best of you. You’re stronger than that.

[gogogirl]

I have been through this- and it even caused me so much self doubt- that I did not hear myself. You love your job and it sounds like you and your husband have ups and downs which happens to lots of people. Are you a teacher? It sounds like you are being too hard on yourself.

[Sonny216]

I'm not in your shoes, but I can feel your exasperation. You care, and THATS such a plus. You mention your family, cause...you CARE!

You are worth WAY more than you think.

I agree with the others, you are being your worse critic. Speak good to yourself..you are SO worth it