I’m scared.

[Minileah1218]

I have a doctor’s appt on Friday to see if I should still keep my dosage of 20mg of Prozac. I’m so frightened to go back to the 10mg bc I was better, but I still had a lot of scares. Suicidal thoughts still haunted me more than ever before, I had strong urges to do many gruesome things to myself, and I would even fantasize ab how I would commit! I’m frightened for those thoughts to come back to me bc I was on the edge so many times. I remember wanting to hurt myself in so many ways that to this day still scare me to death. I feel like my mom doesn’t understand that I still want to die, but not in the gruesome ways I imagined myself dying before. What should I do?!

[Agora1]

Hi Minileah1218, Always be honest with yourself and your doctor. Tell him what you wrote to us tonight. It is important that he has the whole picture. Good Luck with Friday's appointment. Let us know how it goes... xx

[Lizbett]

As Agora has stated, TELL your Dr ... EVERYthing. By that I mean tell how your mum and schoolwork stress you.

BTW, let's say you didn't need to worry about school or your mum. Would you feel better? If your answer is "yes" then that tells you what you need to work on to change.

If you're seeing a therapist, can your mum sit in on one session with you?

There's a solution to what you're going through. You need to make sure people sit up and take notice. In the interim, we will be here to support you honey.

Best wishes 💜

[Windy101]

I agree with the others. Tell your doctor exactly how you feel on the medication now and how you felt before. If it helps, write it down before you go to your appointment.

Maybe your doctor has some pamphlets on depression that your mom could read.

The most important thing is taking care of yourself the very best that you can. If you don't feel well now, tell your doctor and see what can be done about it.

Best of luck and a hug to you.