Hi, I've suffered from panic attacks, anxiety and depression since I was a child. I've been on Zoloft(sertaline) 100mg once a day for over 10 years and it has worked fairly well. I've had times where my panic attacks and anxiety have flared back up but I'm been able to control them and go back to normal pretty quick. Recently about 2-3 weeks ago I woke up in the middle of the night at work (ER vet so work overnight shifts) with a panic attack. I was able to calm myself down and go back to sleep but it was scary. The next morning I get a call from my ex-husband who even after the divorce I am still very close with telling me that me is not allowed to contact me anymore bc of his girlfriend. After that everything went crazy for me. I've been having episodes of severe depression (bursting out in tears and crying), severe anxiety (always feeling on edge and like I'm about to have a panic attack) and a few panic attacks as well. I have Xanax and Extended release xanax for when I fly alone (have anxiety on planes) and have had to take it several times to calm me down. I've also had thoughts about suicide even though I would never do it. Its scary when I'm so exhausated from work but I can't sleep bc I'm so anxious. I feel so alone at times even though my ex has been talking with me and I have great friends and family. I've made an appointment to talk with a Dr about my meds and just get help. Has anyone had breakthrough anxiety like this before? What has worked or helped? I don't like taking the Xanax bc of its addictive nature but I'm not sure what else to do. I'm very active (Crossfitter), I work alot and I constantly have things and tons of friends but I still just constantly have this dark cloud feeling and anxiety. Thanks for any advice!