I know things are not ok right now, and I'm worried terribly about my relationship. I think he's finally at his wit's end and I cannot blame him. Why is the depression in me would rather let him go than try to move forward? Does anyone else struggle with thoughts like these? I feel crazy wondering if I'm honestly just that lazy or if there really is something wrong with me..
The point of this post was that I'm not ok. But I'm trying, struggling, to be ok with not being ok today. I have things to do that I'm struggling to even get up and do. It's one hour at a time right now at best. Sometimes I wish I just had a friend to go grab some coffee or something with that we could sit there and share and understand one another. Sometimes I'm so tired of isolating myself so badly.
On another note, Happy Halloween to everyone. If you have children that are going out, I wish you the bestest evening.
Vacation is supposed to be fun
To anyone who might be struggling
Trying to let go
Difficult to write this
The loneliness continues 
