After a lengthy doctors appointment I have been prescribed some anti depressants. I do not want to take them, but I also don’t ant to fight any more. Some days I struggle getting up I just want to close my eyes and that be it.
My kids are the only thing that makes me snap out of it, momentarily until the mask is on and I show the world I’m fine and can function.
My weight is not helping and there are long standing issues with food as well as self harm. The tablets can make these feelings more intense and, as I’ve mentioned on here before, I broke my hand a few weeks back because I didn’t trust myself to cut. It’s a horrible cycle.
But back to my original point. The tablets feel like a rock in my stomach I don’t know what to do but my doctor made it fairly clear I’m running out of other options.