Motivation is gone...

[ErinMarionSkystar]

I'm not even sure what's happening with me lately. I've been struggling with anxiety and panic attacks for a couple of years now, and have had short bouts with depressing thoughts and stuff, but now it's on to full-blown depression. I can't focus on anything, and I'm having a hard time finding joy in things I used to love. All I want to do is play games, watch Netflix, and sleep. I pretty much have to loose myself in a fictional world if I want to be happy. It's really hard, because as a Senior in High School, I can't afford to slack off. I know things I would like to do for a job in the future, but can't find the motivation to work through these last months. Even the thought of my future is draining. I just don't know what to do.

[VanessaRuiz]

Hi, Erin (I assume that's your name)

I completely understand what you are going through. It's hard to leave the bed when you don't know what to do and don't want to do anything, right?

I have spent a full weekend without even showering, just eating junk food and watching netflix, cheetos in my hair and everything.

Something that helped me (and other people I know who suffer from depression as well) has been exercising. You grab all your frustration, you get dressed, put your sneakers on, grab your headphones and start running. It doesn't matter where to, it doesn't matter what music is playing, it doesn't matter for how long, just run, run until your legs are burning, and then run some more.

If you don't feel strong enough to run, then jog, if not, then walk, but the first thing to do is leave your bedroom and your house, because depression is a ghost and it's living right there next to you.

I hope you get through this, I send you a hug.

Vanessa

[tesanderson]

I was in the same boat, only I'm a Senior in college. I can't give you legitimate advice like a counselor could, but I will tell you this - Never give up. You are young, and you have the power to do great things in this world. Finding motivation is one of the hardest things, so in regards to that, find the one thing that motivates you to get out of bed. Work towards that. If you ever need to talk, please feel free to message me I have faith in you!