I have no idea what I am doing

[Maya466]

Sometimes I feel like I am falling apart, life is not hard I made it hard.i became suicidal a year ago but family really supported me ,they did everything they could to make me feel better,and again these things have started .I feel detached ,I don't enjoy doing my fav things anymore ,I feel like life is moving and I am stuck at one place . I just can't let go of the past.

[Divzi]

To let go of the past is not an easy thing.. I felt the same way before.. even though I didn't do anything wrong to anyone.. I put myself in a stupid situation.. and made my family suffer for few days.. I wasn't able to control my anger.. and took my frustration on them. After that everything changed. I was not able to spend time with them as I did before. It took me about 7months to realize that only way I can make them happy is by trying to be me again.. they forgot those things . All they wanted is me .. present me not my past.

I don't know if this relates to you . But people who Still love us . Live with us.. our past is just another memory for them with us.. Good or bad. But they will take it . You just try give your Best at Present .. even if it is not your best don't worry .. they just like to be with you remember they want you . With good bad or worst.

[km147]

I totally understand. I feel that way too. I am stuck sometimes thinking about the things I regret the most in my life. But, I truly do think that everything happens for a reason. I hope that you can understand that even the bad things can be positive. I'm sorry you are going through a tough time. I am so glad that you have family support. That is literally the most (in my opinion) important aspect to have while healing. You are very lucky. It took time for my family to understand and deal with my problems, my ups and downs. I feel like they still don't truly understand. I don't take meds or go to therapy, I literally just deal with my anxiety and my parents think it will go away on it's own. (its been almost 10 years)

[gogogirl]

Would you like to 'CHAT privately about something that you need to get out?