I am a mixed bipolar with sever anxiety. And recently due to cost I had to give up on my Latuda which was wonderful. I was happy, I was able to function, and I was living.
Now we are playing ring around the medicines trying to find me something that will bring me back into the light.
I dont want to be a wife, I dont want to be a mother, all I want to do is stay curled up in bed under my blankets and sleep.
But this is not an option so I take care of my son and try to be active in play and learning. I act the part of wife by doing things like going to business dinners.
But all I can think about is cutting again, fighting off the anxieties that come with the thought of leaving the house, and how I do not have anyone who understands my battles that are going on inside my head.