Insomnia

[MsOutcast]

Hello everyone. I'm new here. I just needed to express my feelings in hopes that someone can relate. I guess my anxiety and depression is reaching new heights now. I was fired from my job yesterday for my "behavior". Now I can't sleep. Crying more than usual. Don't want to eat or cook or go out. House looks like shit. Car looks like shit. I'm scared to tell my dad I lost my job. I am such a failure. I haven't told my son either. I am tired of disappointing my loved ones and myself... I was barely getting by before. Idk what I'm going to do now. Where will I find the strength??

[Hidden]

do you think perhaps your reluctance to talk to your family may be cutting off potential support they could give you?

[MsOutcast in reply to Hidden]

Possibly, but in our community and family, mental health issues are rarely discussed or understood. It is seen as a weakness or imaginary illness to seek attention or something. I will talk to them about anyways.

[mysmugcat]

You will get some help here. Did you like that job? If not this could be an opportunity for you. Pubs sometimes take staff without references for work. Are you a teenager may I ask and do you live in the UK or not? Small steps everyday.

[MsOutcast in reply to mysmugcat]

I actually did enjoy my job. It was my immediate co-workers who were hard to deal with and ultimately had me fired. I am a single mom of a 17 year old, so I can't really afford to be losing jobs at this point. I had realized, however, that I would probably benefit from 2-3 part time jobs vs 1 very stressful full time job. It had become too overwhelming for me. Once my coworkers found out about my anxiety and depression , they constantly harassed me. So , in that sense, it is good that I am out of that environment. I just wish I would've left in my own accord. I had a sense that they were plotting to get me out of there, so I had been applying for work from home jobs. I also think I will go back to driving Lyft and Uber. The less people I have to physically be around, the better. The more time I can remain clear headed and tear free, the better!

[km147]

I am so sorry that you are going through that. I went through some tough times myself. I felt extremely lost at one point. Stayed in my room depressed for 2 weeks and didn't know how I could recover. I did not know how I could cope with failure. Looking back, I realize that I just needed time to accept it and I hope you will too. Never EVER be ashamed of yourself!

[Tsimon1111]

Just do one day at a time or if one day seems overwhelming try one hour at a time telling your loved ones is always hard but I’m sure they already know you and can figure out when somethings up

[syj77]

It must be really hard for you! I am feeling the same way, it feels like I'm such a failure to my family and I'm ashamed of myself. But I know this WILL get better. Just hang in there! make sure to have someone that you can talk to. It really helps.

[9753]

That's what I'm here for. You have a son? Just get another job. I can help you. Try indeed.com. It will find a job for you. You got this. Where are you from?