Hi. I'm new here and thought I might as well put something out there into the open right off the bat.
I'm 46 year old, married and recently empty nested. I went off of Celexa (40mg) about 4 or 5 months ago for the 2nd time. I had been on it for about 7 years with the exception of about 6 months I was off around 4 years ago.
I learned how to worry as a young child from the example of my mom. But, after years of therapy, medication, research and walking with her through Alzhiemer's (I just realized she died a year ago today), I am convinced that she had an anxiety disorder and unfortunately, I have inherited it. My brother and sister struggle with similar issues as well. So it may be a mix of nature and nurture for us. I bottomed out about 7 years ago with the fear of getting bed bugs before an upcoming trip. And I simply couldn't stop the spiral. I'd always been a worrier. But this was different. Finally, thanks to one of my husband's employees who also suffered with anxiety, I found a doctor and got prescribed Xanax for the short term and Celexa for the long term. I went to therapy (not my first round) for about a year and things seemed better. I tried going off the Celexa a couple of years later and was fine for about 6 months and then had to go back on. I went off again earlier this year after experiencing frequent forgetfulness, concentration problems and just general ditziness that was starting to severely affect my ability to do my job and live my life.
And here I am several months later and last week was PMS week and it seems like a switch go turned on in my brain. Since Friday, I've battled the anxiety again. Circumstances came over the course of the weekend (today is the following Wednesday) that increased the anxiety, starting my overthinking cycle going and today I've spent most of my work day working through the mental sludge.
I really want to be successful and learn some things this time to actually teach myself to work through the anxiety. I think that while the Celexa was a big help (despite the 30+ lb weight gain and increasing brain fog) but it was just masking the pain. I'm pretty sure that though the therapy was helpful, I didn't learn any techniques to work through the issues.
I found this site though Dr. David Carbonell's site, which I found "by accident" today.
I am hopeful. That is different than I felt even this morning. I have made it through the day and haven't died or had something awful happen as a result of the anxiety. This moment right now, I am successful and putting one foot to the next step.