There comes a time when...

The pain becomes too much

You're too thin

You're alone and isolated

You're Unlovable

You're nothing but an abuse tool

You've achieved as much of a 5 year old

You're weird, no one understands me

You're Undesirable

I'm nowhere suffering, and I can't take it anymore.

You trust no one.

I've spent weeks when not working sobbing, my body is in complete overdrive. Sweating, dizziness, plapitations, agitation.

I don't hold any guilt anymore, I want my suffering to stop and I no longer have the entry to chase my tail for another 30 years to be bitterly disappointed.

I f****** give up.

[Loveydovey0519 Ambassador]

Don't ever give up!

[Hidden]

Hi! i understand how you feel but pls never give up on yourself. you deserve the best. i know you are having tough time, probably the worst time of your life but it will get better. take your medications, therapy, do yoga. it will get better, hold on to hope. be a fighter and never give up. if you wanna talk about anything, message me.

[Hidden]

Don't ever give up on yourself.

[mysmugcat]

Hello again. I am so sorry. You are not unloveable, for example. pm me anytime.

[Hidden]

For me, actions always speak louder than word, even then, no one has ever told me they've loved me.no lie. Giving up and being defeated are two different things, this being the latter - I don't give up. There does come a time where everything is too much. I've battled an endless s*** storm since 16 years old when everything peaked, I'm now 26. I've hoped and practiced everything for many years, I'd even taken pretty much the last 2 years off to focus solely on my health and this. People judge and stigmatize because mostly they're arrogant idiots. As I said there's only so much once person can take.

[mysmugcat in reply to Hidden]

I'm sorry you have not been told you are loved, that must hurt. You are worthwhile though. I am thinking about your last reply. Do pm anytime.

[Hidden]

Well it's not worth enough to be published. Sites take it down, and tell you to see a doctor.

I'm over the edge.