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[vporter636]

I'm Vicky and Ive had anxiety for a while. Maybe 10 + years. In the past year it seems like its been getting progressively worse, even when i think its getting better. I have anxiety about pretty much everything friends, my boyfriend, my child etc. Everything is unsettling. I work in nightlife so everything around me is smoke and mirrors. I've tried to get a "normal job" but despite my two degrees I havent landed anything in years. I started my own PR firm that was getting alot of clout in the hip hop community but i fizzled myself out because guys were innaprropriate. They would sign contracts with me just to be able to get close to me then try to shoot their shot to no avail. My boyfriend is extremely black and white with everything. I love him but I cant really get him to understand whats going on with me which causes alot of problems because my usual solution to anxiety is to flee. I've tried getting professional help but I have state insurance that only covers one doctor in the entire atlanta area and shes not accepting new patients. Im just tired you guys.

[Lynl]

It certainly sounds like you need a life change with slot more peace and quiet in the job situation ,make a plan of goals and little by little you will get there. Make two lists, one everything you stress and want out of your life and one of the way you want your life to be like , stick with it and hopefully your boyfriend will be more understanding, when you say black and white, do you mean he gets physical? If this is a bad relationship then you know what list to put him on. Take it slow and be consistent and you will achieve your goals and live a more stress less life . Keep in touch

[vporter636 in reply to Lynl]

The relationship is good and not physical . Black and white meaning he thinks every problem has a simple and instant solution. I appreciate the advice and I will begin working on the list today . Thank you !