Ok so this may seem kind of silly but as I get older and more aware of how the world works I realize just how much humans have impacted the planet. I'm too embarassed to talk about this particular stress with anyone because most people just kind of wave it off. But as my other issues subside this one grows and I need to let the thoughts out. The past three or four days I have been almost constantly worrying about the end of days. Humans are terrible (not you guys, but ya know in general) and we've caused so much death and have spread diseases throughout the world. So many plants and animals have gone extinct because of us. We just keep growing in numbers drastically but society is awful and I fear it will continue to get worse. I feel burdened by all of humanity; as if it is my fault. I feel ashamed for using running water and electricity. I feel such dispair for all of the animals that are neglected, abused, tortured, and killed every day. It may not be happening in my neighorhood, county, or state, but I know it is happening somewhere right now. There have been five major extinctions since life began on Earth and I'm awaiting the sixth. Hopefully it will not happen in my lifetime or even in my children or grandchildren's lives, but it will come and I blame our race for its expedition.
I know that not all of us are bad and that there are plenty of people who do good in the world, but I feel as a whole we have caused too much damage. And don't get me started on the US president, or war, or the newer generations of people... I haven't had cable in about three years and so I haven't seen the news in that long. I feel bad but at the same time I know it would only worsen these thoughts. I could keep going on this subject for days but I should stop now lol. Does anyone else know this burden I am feeling? I don't think it will go away but there's gotta be something I can do to make myself feel better about it, right? If marching through the streets naked screaming truths about humanity would wake people up to the world we live in then I would totally do it, but that would just be crazy.
Feeling anxious about getting out and stepping into that church 
Anxious about family visiting.
Really anxious about the future. 
Overloaded and Anxious
