I have been in a state of either deep depression or extreme anxiety for about 3 months now...probably longer. I've lost track of time. I am diagnosed with Complex PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder, clinical depression & severe anxiety. I was diagnosed 23 years ago...you'd think I'd be better by now. But every time a situation comes up (which is quite often), I regress. I've been self-harming again and I have successfully pushed everyone who ever cared about me away. I don't even want to be near me. I hate myself.