I can't believe I'm posting this. I, just recently (2 weeks) admitted my depression to family. It has gotten really dark. I had been taking meds for 10 years but came off them 3 months ago. I never admitted to the depression, just said it was anxiety and ADD, (BTW) Hmmm. Don't know if it took 3 months for the kolonopin, neurontin, and vyvanse to come out of my system or a recent life experience reality check, but I hit bottom. Glad to find this group!