I don't know what's going on

[Leolanti]

I've been living with anxiety for as long as I can remember and notice I say living instead of coping or dealing. I have generalized anxiety disorder but never has the anxiety interfered with my personality or my life because I am not a anxious person I don't worry about things and I don't look at the negatives ever I am or used to be a chill person but when anxiety does come in I manage to analyze and disarm it always. I've always been a happy person hoping for the best and now I feel different. I've been suffering for depersonalization, derealization anhedonia, and constant anxiety for about a month now without proper sleep, loss in appitite and loss in motivation. After a month of battling anxiety for some reason I feel like I failed and that anxiety won I feel like nothing really matters anymore I have no motivation, I feel different, unconcentrated, no happiness, no clarity, appetite, shitty sleep in general I feel like this anxiety episode has changed me and I'm scared I don't know if I have minor depression or the anxiety just reached another level but I feel like once I recover from this anxiety I'll have a more negative way of seeing things and just a changed way of how I see the world. Is it normal having depression after an anxiety episode? And does it go away? I'm so detached I don't even know what I feel but I don't want to have depression

[BonnieSue]

I don't have all your answers but I can help you with some of them. Your lack of adequate sleep messes you up and leads to your derealization which won't last, especially if you just let it pass without worrying about it. Look it up: you didn't cause it, it won't hurt you and it'll go away. Yes, it feels strange. I have it, too. I have GAD, too. I used to need to take a benzodiazepine daily but don't need it anymore and thought I always would need it. Amazing how things change!! I've always been a happy person on my own, too. Outside circumstances can push me toward negativity but I'm not that way on my own. Don't assume you'll stay changed after this. Just wait and see, ok?

Yes, you might change if your circumstances change, but don't give up just yet, ok?

[Leolanti in reply to BonnieSue]

Thanks for the reply it really got my hopes up, I wish I would have seen it sooner but I went to my psychologist and he let my know it was all anxiety and stress based and no depression, that was really my biggest concern. I still can't fully connect with my surroundings and my feelings and it has me feeling kinda down but at least now I can sorta connect with my loved ones. This has just been a really stressful time period and even worse with the depersonalization because of how disconnected from my feelings I am. There is still some anxiety lingering in there somewhere but with exercise and seeing my psychologist I can make some improvements I just want this feeling to go away and I'm not really scared of it as much as I'm annoyed but again thank you.