Tired of it all

[jewlz17]

Sick and anxious and crying.

Feeling pretty shitty about having to be at work. Even though it's quiet I want my bed but all I was getting at home was negativity I didn't need.

Just hurts when I honestly try and be open to get pushed down. I love my family but all I get is it's all mental that I shouldn't be down because I'm living and other people have it worse in the world and I'm being dramatic. But they fail to see I'm not other people this is me and I don't look for much but just a little understanding that I know I can't get. I feel so small right now like I'm nothing and it sucks. My emotions are all over the place therapy helps talking helps but only for a little. I write I read I keep busy but once I stop I have nothing. Being sick doesn't help I'm the biggest baby ever when I'm sick I'll admit it but I'm still doing it alone

[erraticthoughts7]

You are only alone in theory. This platform has given you an opportunity to interconnect and correspond with individuals who are just like you, I am one of them. There is a lot physiologically that we don`t understand about our illness so we start to believe that there are no answers for what ails us. There is this amazing power hidden in all of us and what ever vehicles we use to extract it, we will then be free from our mental demons. You have already tackled the difficult task of acknowledgement. That is a small victory you can build upon while continuing to fight for your mental liberation.

[jewlz17 in reply to erraticthoughts7]

Thanks

I do tell myself that my illness doesn't define who I am but there are days like today when it's emotionally too much. I try to focus on my life my son my hobbies but when I get so depressed n anxious it's a internal battle but I do appreciate your words it does help knowing I'm not alone