New here. Right now, I'm in the depressive stage of my bipolar disorder. It's been, so far, more severe than the other ones I've dealt with; I haven't had any appetite and attempts to force myself to eat have resulted in me vomiting. The past three nights have been characterized by breakdowns, and minor self harm. I haven't seen a therapist since my freshman year of highschool (I am freshly graduated from said high school) and am against taking meds. Which I know doesn't make sense, but I feel like if I take meds then I won't actually be happy.
Most of my friends are saying I should see a therapist, and get started on medication as soon as I can. My boyfriend and a handful of other people have told me meds are not the solution, and that by being "positive" I can reverse the effects of my bipolar disorder. At this point, I'm exhausted. I don't know what to do anymore and I'm so worn out. Any advice on how to handle this because it's becoming a lot for me to deal with.