Feeling crazy....

[patsfan2621]

Hey guys,

Sooo writting down how I am feeling has always made me feel a little better. I was having a good morning and now the sadness is creeping back? ANd really for what? I texted my friend and haven't heard back so in my crazy brain she doesn't want to hang out anymore, which of course she hasn't give me any indication that that is going to happen. So to back track I am a 37yr old single mom of 2 kids. Its always just been me and the kids doing things alone and it was fine...But now I've been haning out with one of my sons friends mom and the kids EVERY.DAY...and the thought of not hanging out with them makes me so sad...I just always jump to the worst conclusion and think that she is not going to want to hang out anymore, and the thought of loosing this friendship TERRIFIES me. My kids go to their dads this weekend and being alone makes me want to cry even though I used to be ok with it. I cry every day now and I dont know if its just because of this fear of loosing this friendship or everything else going on...I've never been like this before, I mean I have anxiety and now take 20mg of celexa, (just uped it two weeks ago) but now I'm not sure if its the meds or what? I have a drs appt today so that is good. I just really need to get out of my head..these thoughts just keep circling around and around and I can't get rid of them. I need to learn to cope with the fact that life happens and we can't always hang out with who we want to and I can't make a person like me or want to hang out with me...Thank you for listening. Any advice would be great.

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Hi there could be many reasons why she hasn't text back. She could be out and about or her phone may be switched off etc.

I do think every day might be a bit much for her though so I would back off a bit and give her some space. Don't forget others are often busy doing lots of things too.

You need to make yourself some more friends so you are not dependant on just one.

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Iilaclil really hit the nail on the head.

I know what it is like to have a lonely friend, whom I enjoy, call me every day and wanting to know what my plans were. And I have been that lonely friend calling certain people way too often.

Really don't think your friend is writing you off.

(Wasn't that the way we felt when we were younger and a guy didn't call back when we expected him to? lol)

Think you do need a bit of a buffer between the time you spend with your friend. Know it's difficult to make friends if you are taking care of children and not getting out much.

As this weekend is Memorial Day weekend in the US, try looking up all the events going on, and plan to go to one or two by yourself if that's your case. Know that is hard, but you would be around other people....just saying "hello", and "how is this going so far" is always an ice breaker where there is a crowd event.

If you're in England, Iceland, Australia, Canada, Timbuktu,or even California ( that's a nice little dig at my friends) there is something free or reasonable to attend.

Enjoy your weekend, not dread it, ok? You can do this.

[patsfan2621 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you! I ended up calling her to ask her about a meeting she had today, and it turns out she had a rough day and was just not in a good mood, sooooo again it was all in my head. I got new meds today so hopefully that will help. Thanks for your kind words.

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Was so good to hear back from you!

Glad things are ok with your friend.....but you really do need to try ways to meet some other people too. Whether you are with her or not..Maybe the two of you can go somewhere at one of the weekend's events, and practice saying "Hello" to some family that is also there. Can't hurt?