Hi all. I'm Val. 40 yo mom to 2 teenagers with ASD. I have fought BED, depression & anxiety since my teens. I'm my 20s a doctor added Borderline personality disorder to the menu, and a couple of years ago another added PMDD. Hence the title.
I am having a really hard time, more so than usual, connecting with people. I want to. I want friends and a life outside this cell I've built for myself. I just can't seem to figure out how. I've always been socially awkward, so friend making has always been hard. Does anyone know of a book or a website I could go to, that would evaluate my behavior, see what I'm missing, and help me learn the social skills I need to make and keep good friends? Only friends I've ever had were just using me as a means to an end. I decided after the last mess it was just better to be alone. But maybe there's some way to tell if a person is genuine and how to make friends with him or her? Am I making sense?