I'm new to this group as of maybe five minutes ago, and I'm here to find help with my anxiety and bipolar. I'm a 20 year old college student who is on medical withdrawal from my university right now, because of mental health issues. Lately I feel like I've been worse, psychosis-wise, and I'm wondering if anyone else has had similar experiences.
I was diagnosed with bipolar at 18. I've had more than my share of depressive episodes, and a few manic ones, but I'm starting to think that what I've been referring to as "mania" is something more.
Lately I've had heightened anxiety and a feeling of being "off." It's like I exist, just slightly to the left. Or I'll feel like I'm leaning on a 45 degree angle when I'm standing straight up. I also have this sort of inability to focus, both my eyes and my attention, or maybe somewhere in the middle. I tend to second-guess everything. Like, if I hear someone say something, a few minutes later I might wonder "were they talking to me?" or "did they really say what I think they said?" and it's about the simplest, most non-consequential kind of stuff.
I'm just looking for anyone's opinion as to whether this is even the right group for me to be a part of, or if you've had similar experiences, we can maybe share ideas and figure things out.