I am 22 years old and have had anxiety since I can remember. I was on medicine for it for over 7 years when I thought I would be fine without. After being off of it for 5 months my anxiety and depression escalated. I have met the love of my life who is more then willing to help me through all of this, but I get so embarrassed about showing the ugly side of me, that I sometimes feel worse after. I have seen psychologists and tried many new med's and nothing is helping me. I vomit and losee weight from being so anxious. I cry everyday and try to make up excuses to leave my boyfriend because I feel guilty making him deal with me everyday. It hurts worse to even think about losing him. I have gotten to the point where I want to just give up.