Anxiety&Depression

[pkersten]

I am 22 years old and have had anxiety since I can remember. I was on medicine for it for over 7 years when I thought I would be fine without. After being off of it for 5 months my anxiety and depression escalated. I have met the love of my life who is more then willing to help me through all of this, but I get so embarrassed about showing the ugly side of me, that I sometimes feel worse after. I have seen psychologists and tried many new med's and nothing is helping me. I vomit and losee weight from being so anxious. I cry everyday and try to make up excuses to leave my boyfriend because I feel guilty making him deal with me everyday. It hurts worse to even think about losing him. I have gotten to the point where I want to just give up.

[DrDebra]

Never give up. Just when you think the suffering is endless something will shift. Anxiety is not the enemy, avoidance of life is!

[pkersten in reply to DrDebra]

I just don't know if I am strong enough to do this anymore. I feel my partner is better off without me. It's like I don't even remember what it's like to be happy anymore.

[Hidden in reply to pkersten]

Same here with anxiety and depression returning full force after bein off meds for 6 months. I've been back on them for 2 months now, feeling more normal now. Something we will have to manage for the rest of our lives sweetie. Everything will be okay. Take care of yourself.

[brooklynmom]

Hello, my daughter is 24 yrs old and has also suffered from anxiety her entire life. recently her panic attacks have escalated and she feels completely debilitated by them. it breaks my heart to see my daughter this way. she is smart, driven and very loving. as a mom, i can only tell you that no matter how hard it gets, you will feel better one day. if the meds are not working for you, try other methods. i recently discovered a mild form of electroshock therapy called the fisher wallace method. my daughter and i are doing more research and hope to find a doctor that can introduce this type of therapy safely and with guidance. she has also done hypnotherapy quite successfully and has chosen homeopathic herbal therapy over pharmaceutical medications. the one thing i must stress to you is that you cannot stop your therapy. no matter what you choose, you have to follow the therapy consistently. whether it is medicine, herbal remedies, exercise or anything else, you must make it part of your daily routine for the rest of your life. consider your anxiety a part of you that you will learn to manage but never get rid of. much like an obese person losing weight and realizing they must diet the rest of their lives in order to maintain a healthy weight. my daughter is currently struggling, but i have seen vast improvements in her mental health when she is following routines and sticking to a plan. even on your darkest day, know your will to fight and overcome is stronger than anxiety any day.

[Hidden]

Hi I am not sure whether the meds you were on were helping you as you say none of them do. Maybe keep trying to find one which will help? Other than that have you tried self help ie meditation, mindfulness etc.

[pkersten in reply to Hidden]

I do see a therapist.

[TAPNewEngland]

Get back on medication and see a therapist. It's a daily battle and one we are all struggling with. The goal is to have more good days than bad ones. If he stays around even though you feel this way, he must really cherish you. It can be difficult to find others who are so understanding of our issues.