Had a great weekend. Have a 'friend' I see every few weeks. With my low self esteem it was awesome - I felt such a confident boost. But was sad when it was over. I'll see him again, and am hoping to make plans to go see a show...I want to feel that special again... I want something to look forward to. I don't really work, have way too much time on my hands. I know we wouldn't be a couple, being 'friends' is what we are. I have gone through a lot lately emotionally and don't want to rely on him for my confidence, but knowing a specific time we'd get together would help. I know being together this past weekend was great but when am I going to feel that special/desired again?