Not sure what to do

[Ohiogirl50]

Lately my life has been miserable. It seems as if I have nothing that makes me happy. I have no kids, no boyfriend, no pets. I hate my job and get no satisfaction at all from it. I'm not suicidal but I've been thinking about death alot lately. That it would at least be a way that I wouldn't have to be so unhappy all the time.

[nikki911]

Hi,

Sorry to hear your having a really miserable time

I wonder if there is anyway you could slowly set yourself some challenges to change the things that you don't like. If you feel that you can. Easier said that done I know. You mention about a pet?

Sorry I can't be of much help but hang in there because things will change for the better

[Ohiogirl50 in reply to nikki911]

I'm afraid that if I go get help that I'll lose my job. They already have threatened it before when I had a panic attack at work. They don't understand how things like this work. We're not weak, were just empathetic to our surroundings.

[nikki911 in reply to Ohiogirl50]

It's so horrible because then you have the added pressure of work. That pressure then leads to more anxiety.

I have a similar situation with uni, and I've already gone back a year.

I'm tryingvto write my own self help book at the moment, I brought a folder,paper, new pens and am studying depression and anxiety then writing some stuff down. You could try it, it might help you understand yourself a bit better xx

[BrookeMDraper]

Pets are a great source of comfort. They give back more than you know. Are you able to get one?

[Ohiogirl50 in reply to BrookeMDraper]

No I can't have one, I work 12 hour days and it wouldn't be fair to them.

[BrookeMDraper in reply to Ohiogirl50]

Sorry to hear that. Do you have family? I dont have friends either.

[nikki911 in reply to BrookeMDraper]

Yes I have family and friends that help me out of the depression sometimes but I live with a selfish bloke who I'm too scared to leave at the moment. I'm sorry to hear that you don't have friends, I'm here if you need to chat at any point xx

[BrookeMDraper in reply to nikki911]

Thanks.

[TAPNewEngland]

Check with your employer's HR department for a Employee Assistance Program. Use it to go see a therapist. If you haven't done so in the past, they can help you. If there is a clear diagnosis, you are protected by law and your employer can't fire you.