Many thoughts are going round and round in my head. I feel sad, tired, stressed, anxious and quite desperated. I feel like my life is too difficult to cope and that nobody really understands me.
After talking to a friend who is psychologist, she suggested to go and see a psychitrist as she believes that i suffer from depression. Last week, i visited the psychitrist and i was diagnosed with depression. To be honest, i was surprised that after 10 minutes talking with her came up with this diagnosis but i was ok to take the medication prescribed in order to feel better with my life.
She prescribed ZOLOFT and said that it's a very light anti-depressif and that i wouldn't have any side effects. I wasn't worried AT ALL. On the contrary, i was happy that i made that step.
The first night and for three days i had to take only 50 mg (not sure if it matters but i weight 50 kilos). I did took it once and i stopped as i felt terrible the next day. I woke up with my mouth very dry and wanted to press my teeth all the time. I didn't feel like eating and i didn't want to talk to people. I just wanted to disappear in my bed. I went to work and i was pretending that i was ok. I was feeling very tired and didn't have the strength nor the energy to talk very loud (i am a teacher). I was feeling like i had taken drugs and that the effect was gone but not completely. At home, i found it difficult to dedicate time to my kids. I just wanted to get rid of that feeling.
So, i stopped the treatment! I'm sure you will say that i didn't give it a go and that i haven't tried hard. But, i've decided to find a psychologist instead and avoid medication.
I'm not sure if i did the right thing, i haven't looked for a psychologist yet but i will do. My husband thinks that i'm depressed and he wants to take me to the psychitrist again. I've got to say that i'm lucky to have him.
Thank you so much for reading me!
I hope that we all see the bright side of life.