I'm feeling less despondent than I was earlier in the week. I am sitting in my house which is in a state. I'm not talking a few things that are scattered about but mess everywhere. I have to clean up as I am looking after a dog (golden Retriever). The only thing is my brain cannot focus on doing it. There is things that are around that have been there for over a year, as nobody ever visits me and I live alone I never clear up! What's the point?. Every time I try to focus on doing something I end up doing something else such as playing games on the internet! Just the thought of clearing up makes me feel anxious. I'll be just moving stuff from one room to another. I am really forward to looking after the dog, I love going out walking (better in warm sun) and meeting people. Everything I need to do is overwhelming me. I know I need to start somewhere but I'm feeling so anxious. I can't even remember when the dog is coming but if I phone the owner (a GP friend) she'll think I'm not with it and think I won't be able to cope and won't bring the dog.
Every decision I have to make there is something else I have to do first, which I can't face so I end up doing nothing. I feel like an animal which is caught in the headlights!
Well this won't sort everything out, 20 mins games then tidying here I come...(hopefully)