A massive step for me, I've had low moods anxiety and low points for approx 10 years. Been mainly in denial and plodded on so to say. However recently partner had breakdown and I gave him constant support which in turn brought about exhaustion for me and I became moody. We would bicker and I'd say the wrong things in turn hurting him but by no means did I mean too. Came home from work one day to find he's gone and wants no contact, though when it was good our relationship was amazing. He felt unable to cope and support me yet we are speaking of a man who adored me and would stop the traffic for me. I also care for a relative too and work, yet all I needed was to feel support. So now I'm trying to deal with depression and the loss of my everything because he meant the world to me. I seen doctor who has referred me for primary mental health services in my area and I've arranged to see a counsellor too. But I'm both struggling and devastated. Sorry for the long post I know but I need to empty what is going on inside. I thought of suicide but the thought of my children, (all over 16 ) being without there mum stops me yet I have written a letter for all family members if ever I can't move on from where I feel I'm stuck at the moment. Supportive colleagues tell me it won't be easy but I will get better in time, part of me agrees but part of me wants what I had with my partner and I feel that won't happen. Please reply.