Hi, I'm new to the website and I'm reaching out to all those who feel the same as I do at the moment...…. 99% of the day I can't eat, my stomach is in knots. I don't want to wake up some days and the length of the day feels endless, so I try to fill it as best I can, because not to fill it would mean I had time to think and that is just too painful. I take tablets to get me to sleep and to stop my mind from reliving all the stresses and traumas of recent life. I can't hold incidental conversations with people any more, my mind wanders back to my anxieties. I used to be the 'strong one' - solving everyone else's problems, always the one the family turned to help and support. Now that I need support those around me are incredulous at the idea that I'm sick with anxiety and depression and are quick to blame me for being unable to cope. I have stopped talking to them and pretend to be ok. I am not ok, I am in bits. I am very sensible but life has dealt me some cruel and unfair blows recently and I have been unable to just bounce back. I'm trying to remove myself from a very difficult situation, but the depression and anxiety are like a physical disability, so small steps seem like large ones. When I go out in the car I take the dog - if I take the dog I have a responsibility, I have to come home. Dark thoughts, dark places. I will make an appointment with my GP tomorrow in the hope I can find an escape from my dark place. If anyone can relate to this and can assist with advice on how to find a route out of the darkness I would be very grateful.
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