Hello again guys,
After all the support I've was given from this site, from my family, friends, and girlfriend, and doctors I've made a lot of progress. My mood did a complete 180 and I was enjoying basically everything and I was extremely happy for like a solid week or two. Because of this and the fact that I have a better understanding of myself and how to cope with my depression I told the doctor I would like to start getting off my anti-depressants because I gained A LOT of weight and since I was doing better I felt I didn't need them anymore. He agreed and yesterday he reduced the dose for Zyprexa from 5 to 2.5 (Which was annoying because I had to buy a pill cutter.) and to continue that for 14 days and then to stop taking Zyprexa completely. To wait a month so it could completely get out of my system and then to start reducing Paxil from 20 to 10 again for 14 days and then to stop that completely.
HERE IS MY QUESTION- I normally wake up depressed but as the day goes on I get in a better mood but today being day one of reducing Zyprexa was different. I noticed that I started in a okay mood but as the day goes on I'm not depressed but I feel an overwhelming feeling of panic, dread, sadness, confusion, like something bad has happen or IS going to happen. I can't focus on anything for too long and I'm restless. Is this my body going through withdrawal and will it go away? How can I cope with with it because I feel if I had to go back and increase the dose back to 5 I would be accepting defeat and I would never get off the medication.