Evening/morning guys. Its me again, sorry if I'm doing your head in but this is a place where I feel like home sometimes so I always come here daily.
Its my birthday on Tuesday and all I've done most of the day is sleep because I feel so low. I go back to work on the 18th on a phased return to slowly edge me back into it. I don't know how I feel about it to be honest, I know I need to go back because financially I cant afford to be off. I've worked since I was 14. This is my first time being off on sick leave.
Its becoming a viscous circle for me. I worry over money a lot due to being so independent from an early age and being paid SSP whilst moving house at the back end of May is killing me. I don't think I can do it.
My mum and best friend have offered to give me some money towards it all but even if we can move in, I don't think we'll have the money for setting up the water, gas, electric etc. But, I cant live here for any longer from my previous post. If I moved out now, Id be homeless and obviously, that's not good at all.
I just don't know what to do. Ive applied for a loan from my bank but I know it'll be rejected anyway.