Ever since new years I've been feeling ungrateful, depressed! No one wants to go out and play football with me, no girl has dared to talk to me unless if it's about insulting me or picking on me (because that's what my classmates do) ; and my parents are totally broked. Last year I was very grateful and happy because I discovered and learned new things like: Falling deep in love and not expecting nothing in return, also being part of a team for the first time and won a dance contest, but as the time passed all that pride, those emotions faded away.
Now I haven't really spoked to a girl due to rejection since July (Since my "EX" left me) and that lead me to a porn addiction and sometime I don't know to leave that addiction because even though I smile to a girl, they don't smile back in fact; they look at me with hate and pure rejection, and that's a reason I feel like this. Right now I am in conflict with my family, friends and everyone! I have no one but me self... And a screen full pornagraphy with no one to actually be with.
After watching the Super Bowl with best friends, they have stopped talking me, and started hiding things from me, and I really don't know why?! I feel bitterish that I hadn't cried since July, and prayed since December, The more I try to push a tear I can't and kneel my self to the Lord either... All I can feel is anger, like tackling someone