I'm sorry everyone, posting in here again. I just feel really bad at the moment, and like I'm relying on one housemate too much. He is the nicest person ever and I love him very much - not in that way, he's got a girlfriend and I know he's firmly off limits so I've never been attracted to him, which I think is good in a way as I think maybe the reason we are so close is because there's no worries about mixed messages or anything, but I digress - he's amazing, and so supportive all the time, and I just feel bad the amount of times I'm going on stressing about this assessment centre thing tomorrow and feeling the need to tell him every little development in my life or my thoughts when he's probably just thinking get a grip, jesus christ, and I don't know. I feel like you can't always talk to someone all the time as it's not really fair on them having to deal with it, and obviously he says it's fine as you can't help the way you feel, but then he can't really flat out tell me to shut up or anything really, can he? I don't know. Or maybe I just say that if he ever gets annoyed with me to tell me because I know he won't tell me and then that gives me validation and urgh. Feelings. I also still don't have my seven minute lesson planned for tomorrow and I don't understand and now I'm panicking, but then another route came up and just urgh. And then whilst I've been distracted with this, I'm not doing my work, and I'm really tired, so I can't focus, and urgh. I'm sorry everyone, I know you all have real problems to be dealing with and then there's me like 'I haven't written an essay again'. I was trying really hard to be positive and motivated this term, and that work until about Monday this week where my mood just crashed and I just can't bring myself to do anything, and I'm too distracted with tomorrow.