Hello everyone i need some advice with depression, for the past couple of months i have been extremely moody, bad tempered... not being able to cope with anything without loosing my temper.
My enthuasim in anything has literally gone! i cant be bothered to do anything, ive swapped to so many jobs this year its unreal... all because i dont like them.
I now keep having suicidal thoughts... i wouldnt actually do it ... not right now... but ive started feeling like it would be some form of relief.... i havent told anyone about these thoughts... i dont know why... but they are becoming more frequent.
perhaps im to proud... but i feel like crying constantly.. ive had enough... i just wish i could go away and not come back ever again!
I am meant to be the strong person in my family... so this just dont help
i havent been to the doctor... because i feel like i have to admit i am depressed... last time i saw him i tried to give suttle hints... but he didnt think OBVIOUSLY.... i dont know why im posting this... i just want this horrible feeling to go away