Generally in the mornings I always feel washed out caused by my overactive immune system. It is a real problem and I need to sit and let me catch up with the day, This can continue until well after lunchtime and when I become a little bit more human I only work for short periods of time. Fifteen mins.
Today it is a lovely day here and I am sitting looking out our patio windows towards hills and fields. This can make me more lazy and I end up not doing anything at all.
My condition is beginning to make me impulsive as well and this needs to be watched over as I keep buying books. These works are where we have travelled to in the Middle East, Central Asia and Far East.
Where they are now fighting and destroying the wonderful places we went to, Palmyra Syria is one of them.
Hazel is happy with the works I have purchased, sad to say though I was still buying books and now these works are very much the same as its next door Brother. So Hazel now is going to close our account and one click purchases.
What I am trying to go with this is depression can cause a multitude of problems, one of these is impulsive behaviour. This can become a real problem that needs to be addressed. In my case my actions have been stopped and very little harm has been caused, now we have turned around our book collection where I can view pictures where we have been, the registres and travel books are short on pictures, they are good although they prevent me from imagining the places we have visited.
Sad to say I suppose my condition, PsA is affecting my mental health and I need to let go to things I used to be able to do, my problem is I feel that my actions have to be watched, Hazel has to become proactive and be able to watch over me, we talked about this several nights ago, and I had to stress that she prevents me from these impulsive errors, before I could become much worse. So I was giving her permission to refuse these impulsive needs.
Mental illness can cause real problems and a patient needs to know when to back down to impulsions, this can produce stresses in a relationship. Hard decisions need to be taken