I have a perfectly normal life, I go to school and I get average grades. I shifted from the country I've lived in for my entire life to a new country a month or so back. I have no friends in this place but I have a few friends back in my original country who I still talk to on a daily basis. My family is completely normal and I have a normal life. But for a reason unknown to me, I always feel sad. I don't know why or how or anything but I'm always sad and honestly I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being sad, sick of being ugly, sick of life and everything that comes with it. I have never self-harmed and neither am I suicidal but I find myself thinking about suicide for no reason. I have very low self esteem and hate my body a lot. I don't know how people love themselves and I have tried really hard to love myself but I just can't. All this aside, I know almost all people deal with insecurities. I just want to be happy but I don't know how to.