I, like many of you, have suffered with depression and anxiety for many years in recurring bouts. I'm currently off work and have been for 2months for the first time in my life. My depression and anxiety have made it difficult to live my day to day life, and I have been feeling more and more often that I'm not really a real person.
It's difficult to explain. I have a good job, a lovely home that my boyfriend and I worked hard to achieve, a wonderful family and a few very close friends that I can talk to about anything. But behind it all I just have this feeling like it wasn't me that made all this amazing stuff happen, it isn't me that goes to work and it isn't me that is now scared to leave the house and see people or generally do whatever I feel I need to.
Everything I do I just feel like it's happened to someone else, someone I don't know. But not like there's someone else in my mind. I don't hear voices etc.
I have seen my GP and no, he wasn't very supportive, like any time I have been to my GP for help with depression (I haven't discussed this disconnected feeling though). I am now having to switch doctors due to moving home a while ago and have run out of the sertraline prescription I was on. However I don't feel that it was helping me and I will address this with my new GP once I have an appointment.
Has anybody ever had this disconnected feeling? I can have days where I can have a good time and bad days where I can't even leave my bed because it doesn't feel safe outside of it. I just want to know how on earth I can stop this feeling or at least help myself with it.
Thanks in advance.