im not sure how this works im just assuming you type how your feeling
where do i start..
i've suffered with a few bowts of depression for year and year since i was a young girl,
but each time it creeps back up on me it seems to go a little more intense.
the past few weeks i have at my lowest, one min i am tryint o be happy and putting ona brave face and smiling for my kids sake and the fact i dont want my parents knowing how i feel as im hoping it will go away like the last few times.
i just cannot see it getting any better, i feel as if im stuck ina cycle i cannot get out of.
looking after the kids, school run, shopping, cleaning, after school clubs, swimming and i feel like thats all im for, i feel like im not ment to do anything else just do everything for others.
i love my children to pieces.
i have also been feeling like no one wants to know me, i dont see any of my friends outside of work i just feel like they dont want to make the effort with me, i have always found it difficult to socialize with other people i always think about how they are judging me and if they actully care atall or if they even really want to get to know me,everyone who i have been close to has disappeared.
everything is just piling in up and i cannot see to grasp control of everything anymore,
i have work worries, wedding worries, kids worries, friend worries.making sure everything is done and i cannot cope anymore.
i just want someone to reassure me . i constantly want to cry and i cannot stop it , ive also been intollerant to people also . if they irritate me even inthe slightest and they dont mean it ill go mad.. its not fair on them but i cant seem to change it