Ive just realised a bad habit that I do quite often!!
I ALWAYS compare myself to other people my age. I always do it. Every day.
I feel like I compare myself to my friends... my family. Its always a comparison.
and it makes me feel..................like CRAP. Every time. Its asif my mind is looking for a way to make sence of things. Why have I done this? Is this the right thing? is this normal? Then I compare it to other peoples lives or situations to try and make myself feel better.
I made the decision to move home after uni and save up some money and its just really hard
Moving back from the city is so hard
ALl my friends are back in the city and nobody here ever wants to DO ANYTHING.. LIKE EVER. Im bored most of the time if Im not working! Im going to start doing more stuff and thats fine.
But its just so hard
And I really need to stop comparing my life to other peoples. My best friend lives overseas in some exotic country and Im stuck here with my annoying parents when I feel like I should be living my life to the fullest!! And then I ask.........Why am I not doing that? Why? What did I do that made me feel like this?
But I have to remember the PLAN! which is saving to travel etc but its so hard living at home being bored and working full time after I was pretty much a free bird when I was in Uni. I probably sound spoilt right now.......... When I look at all the things I have and everything that I am greatful for it makes me feel so much better. But I still feel upset