Last year it became apparent that i had some sort of mental health issue, i thought it was my personality as have behaved in similar ways on and off for years just not this intensly. i was either full of energy, getting no sleep with no appitie and a hugely increased sex drive, or i would be curled up in a ball desperatly unhappy, crying, etc etc, i was prescribed mirtazipine, i began hallucinating, slept even less, took unecessary risks i didnt identify, had ideas that to me were reasonable but not to others, i cinstantly felt like there was someone behind me, had horrendous panic attacks, when my good mood changed to a not good mood i felt like i had been hit by a bus, the change was so sudden. i had to go to cmht and was taken off these and put on venlafaxine, symptoms were the same just not so severe, back to cmht and put on sertraline, again the symptoms ate the same just not so intense but they do make me feel a bit speedy, i still see things that arent there, referred back to cmht i was tild i can come of sertraline and was given some leaflet on a online cbt vourse. what i need is something to stabilise my mood swings, i can cope with the good days, others say i am unpredictable, erratic and impulsive, sometimes my behaviour can be such that i have to be reigned in a bit by friends. i am horrendous with money to the point that my friend helps me to manage my finances by holding my cards and i have to ask for miney as i do tend to go off on spending sprees. the bad days ate the toughest as i dont trust myself. I read too much into things and believe things to be what they ate not. i can feel like this on good days too tho. confused? yep thats how i feel most days too, that and distracted, disorientated and frustrated as i keep being told that seeing things that arent there is perfectly fine and totally normal. i have given up on the cmht where i live, this week i am going to speak with a friend who is an asw, i am looking for patterns, triggers, indicators of changes in moods but cant find any, i have had tests for thyroid function and other stuff all of which was clear. any suggestions on what to do next as this is impacting on every aspect of my life.