Im Daisy & I'm an 18 year old university student.
When 3 years ago, for some reason, my life kinda stopped.. i don't know why but something changed. I stopped trying in school, i broke up with m boyfriend and i just wanted to sit my friends down and tell them it was over, i didn't want to be around them anymore. I couldn't lose my friends though, i didn't have the strength to tell them & its a good job really because they were good to me, even though they had no idea what was going on inside my head. That lasted a few months, but since then I've had ongoing feelings that resemble those. I have phases, that last a few months at a time where i really can't function properly, my body feels drained and lifeless and I'm stuck. No one knows about how i feel, i don't want to be a burden but since starting university, its got worse. I'm alone, and have only a few friends. The thing is, in person, I'm this outgoing character who is happy and confident. But underneath that, i worry about everything and i can't stop. I don't know about social anxiety, but I'm pretty sure that must at least be part of it. What n one knows is, i come home from university after a day of being the smiley girl & i sit in the corner of my room and cry. The thing is, i don't know why it happens so i can't talk to anyone. I feel so empty, lost and alone right now and i just don't know how to cope anymore.
I might be in the wrong place, i don't know, but can someone at least give me some guidance on how i should deal with this? or maybe I'm just being a fool.
Maybe I'm just not happy? Maybe i wrote all this for nothing?